Gifts… Such a tickling word on the very tip of the tongue. And the eyes are dreamily closed. And fantasies fly, in the very pupils, in a rush to the bottom. And there… Everything that the soul desires… Paradise islands, tropical smells that excite the imagination of pleasure, various desired things… If only to get there, then it would happen, then there would be an unexpected gift! Is it expected? And suddenly they give the wrong, wrong, wrong? As a matter of fact, the gift will be given, sign here, please, but where is the pleasure? Joy again? And it turns out that something is wrong, as if there is a deception somewhere. Although both know what and how in reality. They know, but they don’t talk about it directly … And then, after shaking the gifts of my life a little, I found five types.
The first type of gift was called a gift-satisfaction. For example, I cried and cried, and my beloved looked at me and said, well, let’s go, you will get the ring that I promised a long time ago, somehow there was no time. In the eyes of wine and nothing else. I sit and look at him, there is no good market at all, and the feeling is as if a couple of kilograms of my pain are worth a couple of carats in pebbles. There can be a thousand variations, but in general, both are aware.
The second look. This is when I was ready to buy my ex-husband anything as a gift so that he would not touch me at all, in any sense. And what different men did for me during the candy-bouquet period. So that the type does not run away to a bigger donor. The most unpleasant thing is that all of us participants in the action are naturally aware of the case, but are tactfully silent. We play social games.
Further more and more interesting. Gifts-givens. “Pieces” are timed to some event. It is not accepted to go to any without it. You go, search, get angry, make trouble for yourself and others, after some time you start to hate this whole event (in general, quite positive in itself), well, if not the culprit of the celebration itself, you try to pay off with money… In a word, who was there will understand ..
And finally, the same thing that more or less resembles the meaning of the word at first … A gift is a thank you. Well, here, of course, you can translate everything into the sphere of you – me, me – you, but I’m rather talking about others, about what you really want to give as a gift… and what’s interesting here is that the boundaries are blurred and it starts to shine like a rainbow after the rain, the fifth or the first the most important important, a Gift as a Gift, a Gift as Joy, a Gift from the same Soul that always Knows. And when I look back on my life, when I gave and when I was given from this state, so often things turned out to be wrong. When like beads gathered into a necklace the arrival of a frosty February night, with sincere laughter in the midst of an argument, it is decorations on the handles of a happy birthday car, it is hot mulled wine at 4 in the morning, it is when you close your eyes with your hands, and when you open the sea in front of your eyes, it is when you want to overturn the earth and the sky and see something, the same thing or not a thing, in the process of gift-gifting, the ecstasy can only be compared to an orgasm.
In short, in my opinion, gifts are tasty, sweet and not nauseating. It is impossible not to guess, it is impossible not to like it, because the giver and the gifted are as if on the same wave, it is intimate and moving to tears, both feel this moment at the level of the Soul that Always Knows. And I am by no means proposing to cancel all the others, I am simply for the fact that we, in general, and each one individually, become a little more aware and notice how we live “about it” in the world and that each of us has True Gifts in life as as much as possible and more and more often we could gift each other in the name of goodness.
